Owning the Process
I hit a wall. There is hardly an entry in this blog for October and November. I fell behind, then farther behind. At first, I did not understand what was happening, but the truth was that I had had all the music I could stand. What took over again, mostly, was silence.
Of course, you can't watch a television show or a movie without hearing at least some music. I follow CBS Saturday Mornings, and they always feature a live band or singer in a segment they call "Saturday Sessions." In early November they featured Norah Jones. Who doesn't love Norah Jones? Of course I listened, and I enjoyed hearing her sing and accompany herself on the piano. So it wasn't all silence in those months.
I think that disappointment, disbelief even, at the election played a part. It was all any of us could talk about, when we were able to talk again. But when evil wins, how can there be music?
Those of us who care about the poor, about healthcare as a human right, about the environment, climate change, the space program, finding a cure for AIDS, equal rights for women, prison reform, and that Black lives matter are finding ways forward. The weak need protecting, and I want to be a part of that. I want to continue, as well, with this project to win back music.
You learn a couple mantras in gyms: "No pain, no gain" and "Push through the pain." I will keep those in mind in the coming days and weeks, and I will make myself listen to music when I don't want to. But some days, I might play hooky and just go fishing, so to speak, so I won't hit that wall again.
Let's have a song. Norah Jones, of course. Jones was a lounge singer before she began recording, and her songs have an intimate feel. She has won nine Grammy awards, including five for her unforgettable first album Come Away with Me (2002). Here is a link to CBS Saturday Sessions, and Norah Jones singing "Carry On":
I created "Spider, Are You Crying," the image above, in 2006. It is based on the Cladoceri, one of the named structures in Mandelbrot fractals. The title is from a haiku by Basho:
Spider, are you
or the autumn wind?